When a nightmare that I've been waiting for for years to come true comes true and the rug is pulled from under my feet, my mental stamina is low. And yet I should pretend to be able to function normally in everyday life, when all I want to do is cry and collapse. And study deadlines are approaching. "For the former world has passed away"
Stress of course causes and worsens endometriosis pain. My hip has been hurting more than usual, and has slowed my walking even slower than usual. Is that because of perimenopause? Now I have also had other joint pains, and even strange muscle pains. And my sleep has also decreased for a long time already. I always use melatonin before going to bed, but these days I wake up abnormally early in the morning and usually can't fall back asleep.
I have way too much unnecessary stuff and I should try to get rid of it. While trying to do that, I went through a music book from 1989, calles School Music 5-6. Are children still taught such misogynistic songs today? On the song Orient Express, an old maid wants to be raped. Then, for example, the song Oman kullan silmät, to which our elementary school teacher taught us additions that denigrate women. Or Minun kultani kaunis on. So beautiful that even horses laugh at her.
I managed to clog the kitchen sink. I poured mouthwash and dog ear cleaner into it. At least the mouthwash had tea tree oil in it, but mouthwash should never contain anything that clogs drains, because mouthwash always ends up in the drain anyway. And there was no oil or grease in that ear cleaner either, but alcohol and peroxide, among other things. But the drain still got blocked. Even the home plumber stuff didn't help, only a plunger. I'm such a loser that I'll probably destroy the whole house.
The idea came to me to watch my favorite movie Gone with the Wind (affiliate link) for Easter. I had been thinking for a while that it had been a while since I last watched it. And of course I needed an excuse to finally use this picture. Maybe the day I hate, Good Friday, will be spent with this movie, after all it's a 4 hours long plus intermission.
I had to post a couple of pictures on my The Bold and the Beautiful blog, which I thought Google would complain about. But I thought Google would consider strangulation pictures as violence. I was wrong, Google bots think they are sex. What does it say about our wonderful modern times that strangulation is no longer violence but sex?
It's annoying when I have to stop reading and writing because of eye pain and overburdening them. When reading and writing is too much for my eyes. I don't know what to do about it. Should I send my eyes on a (beach) vacation somewhere?
With my eyes and neck aching, I then wrote three different short stories at the same time. They went quite well, I even finished one of them.
I was so stressed out about the end of the ski jumping season that it was hard to sleep the next night because my heart was beating too much. Spectator sports are tough, it takes a toll. If I'm still alive when the next season starts, I should come up with something because I don't want to pay a penny to the crappy Viaplay. Why can't I get Polish Eurosport, for example? Except through illegal streams. Well, Viaplay just announced a cheaper package that would even include ski jumping.
Red Bull organized its own ski jumping event in Poland after the season ended. Who was responsible for the safety of that? They jumped at terrible speeds and I really saw red when Domen Prevc fell his too long jump. He was so high up at the end of the hill. Many meters above the hill record. They would have to pay a lot of money to compensate for a possible injury or worse. Life-threatening activity.
I went to the library again. It was a bit annoying when the return machine couldn't accept the course book. That crappy, heavy (2.1 kg!) and abnormal book in every way.
Spoiler from tv-show ER, beware!
I got to continue watching ER, in the sixth season, when the episodes shown on a free channel here progressed to that point. It's so bad to watch Lucy spend many episodes worrying about a patient her age who needs a heart transplant. Lucy doesn't know that she herself doesn't have much time left to live. I've probably watched the sixth season episode "All in the Family" dozens of times in total.
I was totally shocked when I saw that the episode "Be Still My Heart" that was airing on tv here had been cut. The legendary ending scene had actually been shortened! The TV version was missing the scene where Carter tries to get up, and then the zoom in on Carter's eyes when he sees Lucy in horror. I've seen that scene so many times that I know it by heart, so I knew right away that something was seriously wrong. What a bloody sacrilege to cut the episode! I can't stand it! If they have to cut the episode, they should take out some less important scene!
Below is the original, uncut, uncensored scene:
Then I waited to see how badly the next day's All in the Family had been cut... well, I didn't notice anything. I started wondering if ER has been cut in streaming services. Many TV series fall victim to the slaughter when the music is changed for the DVD release.
Is there life after the ski jumping scandal? Hardly.
This is a live tracking post of ski jumping World Cup season, focused on my two favorite jumpers, Domen Prevc and Andreas Wellinger.
Oslo or some Norway, Raw Air
Andreas Wellinger lost the qualification by 0.1 point to Geiger! What a bloody nerve-wracking move from Karl.
In the first round, Karl beat Domen Prevc by 0.1 point! What a bloody Karl! Beat both my favorites by 0.1 point.
The situation after the first round: Wellinger 2nd, Domen fourth 0.1 point from third place. A joint podium would be so close, but so far away.
In the final results, Domen was 5th, Wellinger 7th. Their difference was 0.4 points. So pretty close to a shared place, if not a shared podium.
Special notes from the competition: Timi has a much cleaner ass than Domen.
Vikersund Ski Flying
Friday
A double win for my favourites in the first practice round, Domen first. When could I see something like that in a competition? Domen won the second practice round... as I've always said, he was made to fly... when the jump hits the mark on a ski flying hill, he goes very far...
Domen won the qualifying round, meaning he won all three rounds. So no winning in the competition itself?
"Why couldn't this be a competition day?"
Saturday
The practice round was cancelled, so that is a good sign?
I was ready to do something drastic on Viaplay's headquarters when I found out that they don't show the competition on TV at all. What the hell is Viaplay being paid for? It's just fucking stupid to pay to Viaplay.
So I can't even get a tape of Domen's win so I can feel it afterwards.
After the first round, Wellinger was in the lead, Domen was fourth.
In the second round, Domen jumped a good jump, but fell. Wellinger won, Domen was fifth. Without the fall, both would probably have been on the podium, probably a double win!!
One good thing about it is that Viaplay only had an online broadcast, they showed everything until the end, so I saw the award ceremony, which is rare.
Wellinger, the wrong winner? When I was hoping for Domen.
I hope Domen's ankle isn't sore tomorrow.
Sunday
Still no competition on TV. You are pure shit, Viaplay. I've started to suspect that the reason why the TV doesn't record ski jumping is not the TV but Viaplay. Recordings from other channels are successful.
The start of the competition was delayed due to the wind, and there was just one round.
Double win for Domen and Wellinger! Personal best 247m for Domen!
Wellinger won Raw Air for the first time, Domen was second. Without his fall yesterday, Domen would have won both.
So two double wins and a joint podium! Dream come true! I even saw all the podiums!
How can it be that They are both winners!!
Is there nothing more to achieve in ski jumping now?
When I was tired and in pain, waiting for the competition to begin... because of the previous day's disappointment, hoping for a double victory...
Lahti
Saturday
Wellinger led the qualifying, but a couple of outrageous Austrian guys pushed ahead. Thank you Yle for moving the qualifying from television to Arena right at the time of Domen.
Wellinger 6th in the race. Domen biggest loser in the second round, 15 places down.
I don't understand why there was a crowd in the Lahti hill. Was it because of Ahonen and Nieminen? It was nice that they organized that, but I was scared whether they would come down from the tower alive. I even dared to watch Ahonen's jump.
(Like someone on Twitter said: This is a great time for Ahonen to make a comeback, so he can be 4th in the Olympics next winter)
Sunday
Stupid superteam. Why do I remember that before in Lahti there were always two individual competitions and an evening team competition?
Domen had no place in the team, he was only the fourth best Slovenian on Saturday.
Slovenia won, Germany fourth (again). But Domen got to be in the group photo of the winning team. Nice to stay there for an extra day for nothing?
Planica
Thursday's second practice round: Wellinger won, Domen second. Later I found out that Domen jumped 246.5 in the first practice round, half a meter away from his recent personal best. Deep squat landing, scary.
Wellinger won the last qualifying round of the season, Domen fourth. Eisenbichler, who is ending his career, third.
Who will win the ski flying cup? What about Planica 7?
Friday
Domen won the practice round.
After the first round, Domen was second after Anze. Domen's wind gap was not optimal. Wellinger 6th. Domen took the lead in Planica 7, taking the lead from Wellinger. After his jump, Domen explained to Peter how it went.
Domen won the competition. Wellinger 6th. Domen also secured the ski flying world cup victory. Best flier!
Damn, those ski flying jumps always scare the hell out of me. It's too dangerous.
Saturday
After the first round of the team competition, things were pretty well in the oven for both my favorite's teams to get on the podium, with Germany in second and Slovenia in third.
In the second round, Slovenia fell to fourth after Kos. In the final results, Germany was second, Slovenia third. The last jump of Eisenbichler's career, and in honor of that, as an anchor. And of course, no podiums were shown. And since the default is that tomorrow's award ceremonies won't be shown anywhere, it's a bit of a bummer. I want to see all the globes! Domen strengthened his lead in Planica 7.
I wanted to cry when I noticed that my recording of Domen's amazing victory the day before doesn't work. "Unknown error." Fuck you, TV. I had already thought how great it would feel to watch that victory at any time. Well, of course not. What in this life would work?
Sunday
I realized on Friday night that the clock change is at a bad time. Should we turn them so that the competition is even earlier than normal? Instead of 10:30, it's already 9:30? And how does the TV alarm clock work if the clocks are changed in the middle of everything? Whhich alarm time does it have to be, old or new time? Luckily, I have a cell phone that doesn't change its time by itself, so I can set it to wake me up. Well, two clocks woke me up at the same time.
Domen won the trial round. Why did Michael Hayböck, about to finish his career, not want to participate in the competition, even though he could have? The best 30 overall in the World Cup can participate. Or the best 30 people present...
In the first round, Domen's 245m wasn't enough to take the lead, when Anze outrageously passed with a new (better than Domen's) personal best. Wellinger was 4th.
WORLD RECORD!
On the second round, Domen jumped a world record, 254.5m. It was a touch and go would it be deemed as fallen, but no. His brother Cene was the first to rush to congratulate him.
Even the world record wasn't enough to win the competition. Sorry Anze, but Domen is the moral winner. Wellinger was third, so both my favorites were on the podium! They are both losers!
Domen won Planica 7. And the ski flying world cup, Wellinger was third in that.
By some miracle I was able to see all the victory ceremonies.
Viaplay is a complete shit show, and this fact proves it: if it had been up to Viaplay alone, I wouldn't have seen a single award ceremony.
Even though I couldn't believe it after Friday, the season couldn't have ended any better.
After Domen's nightmarish start to the season, the rest of the season went incredibly well. Victories, world championship golds and, as the cherry on top, a world record!
Domen's 2024-25 season would be a great movie, the drama would be spot on.
Ps. Moment of truth: does the TV recording of the record jump work? IT WORKS!
