At the breaking point

I just can't stand that there are so many new health problems that supposedly require a doctor's visit. For example, that bump under my eye. If I try to search for information about it online, I'm not be able to, because the results only show lumps that are visible on the eyelids. This bump of mine is completely invisible, it can only be felt under the skin.

When there are so many things wrong and so many bumps, it's hard to know which one should be the first to rush to the doctor. And when I can't decide, I won't do anything? I assume that the hard spot in your armpit is also due to endometriosis, because I've had supposed endo pain in both armpits for years. But I don't think I'll ever get through to that student health chat.

 

 

The math exam was terrible. I think that if the exam has both theory and calculations, the theory questions should come first, the calculations take so long. When you're only just getting started on task 7 and time is running out on an exam with over 20 questions. When you think you won't be able to pass the exam just because you only have time to do a small part of the tasks. Terrible stress, and fight or flight continued long after the exam. Well, in the end, I had no less than 13 minutes left in the hour and a half exam, and I got 31/35 points.

Everything is so annoying when I have pain and PMS. It's also annoying that text from one of my blogs was copied elsewhere without citing the source.

 

 

This time Lidl didn't actually have sugar-free milk chocolate, just dark. I'm afraid they've stopped making it.

Well, I finally got to borrow game Resident Evil Requiem from the library... It's a shame that survival horror doesn't suit me.

 

 

Easter

When you have to prepare for two exams on the same day, it's of course best to spend the whole day playing a game. You can only borrow 3 games from the library at a time. 

Red Bull Target Jumping was pretty boring this year, when no one was in danger to die, and the winner was the same as last year. Janne Ahonen's team came in last. Although that Red Bull idea is boring and stupid too.

I was hoping that I would have received one of the games I had reserved from the library for Easter, but no. For example, RE9 has been on "loan" status for a long time, which normally means that it's on its way to the next person to reserve, but no. I can't think of any other explanation than that the library employees keep the games for themselves first. RE9 was released on February 27th, and I still haven't received it even though I'm the first in the reservation queue.

A year ago, on Good Friday, I watched my favorite movie Gone with the Wind. I decided to start an Easter tradition by watching it now too.

Some other Easter ideas came to mind, like playing as Easter Bunny (Friday), going to a bar, going to my mom's, going to the forest. I only did the last one. I would like a shirt with this Friday print (made by AI).

 

 

But in honor of the "celebration", of course, I got stomach aches, nausea, butt cramps and hip pain. The last one tried to prevent me from sleeping. I think I need a pillow between my legs, as some people claim that it could help.

Breaking news: When I woke up on Easter Monday, the ground was white. Then I had a dream about a snow-white Olivia. I petted her on the verge of tears. I told her that in the afterlife, cats can talk if they want. She didn't. On the other hand, I probably wouldn't have been able to stand what she had to say to me.

 

 

Easter is of course the best time to show Christmas movies on TV: Home Alone, Home Alone 2, Die Hard. I only watched the summer movie Die Hard 3.

 

Sleepless in somewhere

A strange, early and easy spring. Usually, my jogging routes have been frozen for weeks in some places, but now everything had melted between two jogging days.

I made the mistake of doing a few math calculations. Then I had such eye and neck pain that I thought I had meningitis. I've been afraid of meningitis since I was in middle school and a girl from the same school died of it. Since I was young, I've had three illnesses that I've been particularly afraid of: in addition to meningitis, a blood clot and myocarditis (because Saku Koivu had one when he was young).

More lumps have also appeared, for example under one eye. There are additional problems with my eyes due to their rosacea. Of course, they are also so dry that I should use eye drops, but I can't afford it. My body dares to demand anything that costs money. As I've said, my body has particularly expensive needs.

 

 

Last week I spent one night on the couch when I got upset about my spouse snoring. My hip didn't really like the couch. It's sometimes hard to sleep, just because my eyes feel so dry.

I put off trying to get an appointment to student health services for two weeks, but it's not that simple. You can't get in line for the chat if it's supposedly too crowded, meaning the line is over 30 minutes. Yes, you should still get in queue, to wait.

I did an inventory, and even if I'm careful, I have over 20 short stories in the works. At least one of them is actually intended to be a novel. And then there are the three novels in the works, and the two sequels to my first novel that I'm dreaming of. And one novel idea that I haven't even started writing. So there would be enough to write if life lasted at least a few more centuries. I'm a bit jealous of those who spend their entire lives churning out novels off an assembly line. I've had decades of time, but I've never gotten anything done.