Pain causes more pain

I can happily report that I am currently not suffering from constipation. I have only taken two magnesium oxide pills a day, and it has been enough. I started taking them with cheese to prevent its constipating effect, and I was surprised how well it works.

I took the student health service's health survey, and surprisingly, based on it, I was automatically booked for a dental check-up. I claimed in the survey that I haven't been to a dentist for at least five years. I don't remember how long it really has been. I have been to a dental hygienist though. I have been putting off going to the dentist because I'm afraid of what will be revealed. It started almost two years ago, I clenched my teeth while sleeping and they suffered because of it.

And unfortunately, I don't think the student health service has any gynecological services at all anymore. At least, they say on their website that they only offer general practitioner-level services in gynecology. I would still like to get that ultrasound. In fact, when I looked into the matter, they only have general practitioners these days. The whole thing is ruined, meaning students are forced to pay for it and get nothing in return.

"I can't take it anymore"

- a message in a Facebook endometriosis group

And so it happened that right after I got an appointment with the dentist, I started having terrible mouth pain. Endometriosis pain was bad and I was grinding my teeth together while sleeping again. I don't know if the mouth pain and symptoms were just because of that, or also because of something else. One spot on my gum was really swollen and sore. It was hard to believe that it could heal on its own. The same spot has had symptoms many times before, but not this bad. So it's the spot where a wisdom tooth was removed about 20 years ago.
 

So when endometriosis pain subsides, my mouth has been so sore that it's difficult to eat. It makes no sense that I'm developing a bruxism problem at such an "old" age. And when my mouth hurts, it increases stress and bruxism even more.

Nothing can come of this life when there's always something bad or pain going on. I'm starting to feel so exhausted physically and mentally.

Carol of Duty

 

These symptoms started on a night when I couldn't sleep because my heart was pounding from stress, and I happened to see the end an episode of the Walking Dead's  Daryl-series on TV. Carol was there! I had been wondering what happened to Carol for a long time. Carol was a badass like she always is, and she was a special guest star. And later I found out that that was probably the final episode of the season... I always hoped that Daryl and Carol would end up together...

I used to have horrible Walking Dead (affiliate link) addiction, I couldn't stop watching the show even I wanted to. But then I hit a limit when Carl died, and I stopped watching immediately.