My first contact with Tabitha was when I heard her meowing behind the front door of my apartment, even before my friend had time to ring the doorbell. Tabitha was always a loud screamer in the carrier.
My friend knew that I wanted a cat, and her friend had a couple of kittens available. I just had to decide whether I wanted a girl or a boy. I wanted a girl, and so Tabitha, or Tapsa, came to me. I took the name Tabitha from the book Nine lives - A year in the life of a cat family (affiliate link). But over time, Tabitha just became Tapsa, which is a boy's name. So the vets always wondered about it. A girl named Tapsa!
What happened to Tabitha's brother? All I know is that there was a dog in Tabitha's childhood home. And apparently there was no scratching post, because Tabitha didn't know how to use one. Tabitha also wasn't socialized, so she was afraid of strangers and didn't like other cats.
Tabitha was happy being the only cat in the house. I should have realized never to get more cats.
"If it happens that I become frail and weak and the pains disturb my sleep, then you must do what you must, because no one will stop the last journey. You will be sad - I understand.
Do not let your sadness stop you, because today, more than ever before, your love and friendship will be weighed.
We have had so many good years. You would not want me to suffer, when the time comes, let me go. Take me where they will help me, but stay with me until the end. And hold me tight and talk to me until my eyes are closed. I know that in time, you too will realize that it is friendship that you show me. Do not be sad that it must be you who must make the decision. We have been so close - the two of us during these years. Can I leave now? Do you think the time is right?
I have walked my life's path and done my best. So can I step to the other side and be free to leave?
At first I didn't want to leave, I fought with all my might. But now something seems to be calling me, towards the warm and living light. I want to leave, it's hard to stay. I'll try my best and try to be here for a while, so you can take care of me once again and I can experience great, great love.
I know you're sad and scared because I feel your tears that wet my fur.
I'm not far away. You know that I love you too, that's why it's so hard to say goodbye and end this life with you. So, hold me close to you one more time, and say the words that I wish would be, because you care about me a thousand times, you'll let me sleep away.
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